Those who have had troubled or traumatic childhoods have most likely reaped the result of words of adults that were knowingly or unknowingly meant to destroy. I was threatened on multiple occasions to keep "the secret" or else...and all results of not keeping that secret would be my responsibility. That was much too much for a child to bear.
So I learned to keep those words deep inside. As I grew up, I continued to struggle voicing my own words. Shame helped keep them inside as well. Through a rough, verbally abusive marriage, I continued to keep those words hidden. Oh I did try to voice them, but was put down or just told that that wasn't true. Don't get me wrong, I was a "successful" professional who used her words carefully to bring truth and life to many children and their families. Most friends were kept at a safe distance and never truly knew me. But the real truth, my truth, my words, my story....that has remained largely hidden.
But I truly believe God is giving me the courage to use my voice, my story, to bless others. So I'm on this journey to do just that. Fear has already tried to stop me, even shame has tried to lift it's ugly head against me, but I will speak of His love, His redemption and His absolute healing, because He loves us so. What he can do for me, and has done for me, He can and will do for you if you simply ask and trust Him.
Blessings to all in the name of our Lord Jesus.
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