Saturday, September 8, 2012

Lovers

Once again, life has been busy.  And sometimes we tend to forget what is really important in life.  I've been surviving, but not overcoming for awhile.  My spouse has been struggling physically with severe pain and between that and the meds to control that he is difficult to live with.  I have been learning, the long slow learning curve, how to live with and deal with this in a way that allows me and my teenage son to survive and maybe even thrive.  But it has been a real struggle. 

What is important in life?  I was listening to a Joyce Meyers CD recently and she was saying we are to be "lovers" not judges of other people.  I have recently lost a colleague to suicide.  Though we were not close, I feel as though maybe if I hadn't been so busy, maybe if I had been a better listener, maybe if I had reached out....  No, I don't feel guilty, but it is a reminder to me to slow down.  We may be in pain ourselves.  But we can still be "lovers" of others.  Yes, my life has been difficult for quite awhile.  But I believe God is speaking to me and telling me to be a "lover" of others.  To reach out, and talk to those I work with about things other than work, to provide a smile, to say how are the kids, how is your health, to say I appreciate you in my words and actions.  It's not that hard to do, but it requires that you take your mind off of yourself and your pain for awhile.  And I have found that in this brief time I have felt more joy from this than I have felt in a long time.

So, my goal is to "love" those I come in contact with every day.  To believe that God will help me to love those in need.  To give of myself, and therefore in some way God will give back to me what I need.  And in some way, my life will be better, my outlook will be better and my health will be better.  So here's to a journey of giving.  This world could sure use it!